In that predicament, not knowing what the right decision is, the logical or heart felt one. Such a conundrum that plays on your mind throughout the nights and the days. Conflicting thoughts from others and some that coincide with your own, that send your mind back into darkness when you think you have finally made the correct decision. Such things are allowed to play such a large part in your life, again creating more confusion. You begin to doubt yourself and find urself back in that unhealthy place of hatred and self doubt.
Coming to the end, still fresh in your mind, thinking about the times they were yours for all time.
The pain cuts like a knife each time you consider your existence with them extinguished.
Minutes feel like hours when you are confronted by your thoughts of what could have been. The smallest details are considered and defined as if they were the absolute. There is no comfort only distraction from your minds continuous train of thought. These thoughts manifest themselves into further depression and more dark and sauded images seem to engulf your mind and let you continue down your road of self destruction.
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